Tonight is a ugly moment turned beautiful, as I sit and think. Ugly Revelations are always beautiful when seeking to understand the bigger picture. At first I thought to vent about jealousy, but this feels much better. Like a source of peace that wiped away my frustration. I felt a sense of frustration about how people try to force you into a competition that you never asked to be in. It is always strange when a person hates you for wanting to be yourself. As I realize that there is nothing to be frustrated about. Jealousy has always been around and will always be around. I remind myself that those emotions don’t belong to me; so I have no responsibility to them.

Most times I believe it is the insecurities of another trying to ease their self-hatred through a target of their choosing. Most times it is someone that they feel like they need to knock down a notch. You know that crab type of mentality. I have seen it many times; same game, different person. It is always confusing to me when people take up this jealousy with complete strangers that probably don’t even know they exist. While writing this, the thought comes into my mind which was peace. I just feel a calm tingle go throughout my entire body. The feeling places a light relaxed smile upon my face. Pushing out any negativity that my enemies try to send my way. I love this, as I take a moment of silence to bask in this feeling.